Widmung: Für Lovie, obwohl sie chara deaths hasst. Und überhaupt ich sollte ihr lieber eine richtig schnulzige MSR widmen. Na ja das kommt noch:

* knuddel Spatzl *

Aber auch für Stefan Rackow der mir meine erste Bewertung für mein erstes Poem geschrieben hat. Deine Bewertung hat mich echt angespornt was längeres zu schreiben


Anmerkung: Jetzt bin ich auch mal in Kontakt mit dem Alpha-Team gekommen und die liebe XS hat mir sogleich auch noch eine Beta gemacht.

(Auf jeden Fall schaut es so aus)

* danke*











Nothing to hide







Tears run down my cheeks



They’re burning on my skin



You're not there with me



Left me alone



Alone in this dark life



You had to go into a world without pain



Now you are released







You don't deserve this



Knowing all these bad things



Having all this pain



So much pain







At the time of your death



Rage controlled me



You’re not supposed to be dead



But there’s no way to change it







I want to hug you



Like I always did



Put my arms around you



But you are not here







Yesterday, I saw your headstone again



I felt so black



Your death had to be dealt with



But there’s nothing that can deal with it, I am empty







Now you're dead and it’s my fault



I should have looked after you



I want to ask you for forgiveness



But there’s no way



I have to make peace with myself



Tearfully



I recognize that I am badly consumed



But it won't stop my self-hatred







I don’t want to live any longer



There’s no reason to live



I had the truth



The truth was you







I can feel your cold empty body



Everytime I go to sleep



I can hear you call my name



But I can't come and help you







Every time I close my eyes



I see your icy body



You layed in my arms



Calling your Name



Didn’t bring you back



You were covered all over with hoarfrost



Didn’t breathe

Why did you leave me, Dana?









There’s no way to leave



This painful nightmare



Everyday I wish I would wake up



I wish you were there,



Lying next to me



I wish I could feel your warm breath



Your warm body



And your head on my Shoulders







I lost everything when I lost you



There’s nothing to hide



I can’t stand this any longer



I have to leave



This life